that's the first personal post in...i dunno how many months already...and it seems like it's bad of me to come online in such a PERIOD OF EMERGENCY...aka Promos...but whatever I'm now feeling quite numb...AJC so no life one...whole day is mug or retain.ya and to hell with a living example of the big fat stupid mugger who's also a retainee...*********************...AJC should have gotten rid of such money wasters...$8888 per year on each student...and that jackass's is wasting 3 years of that life,$26664 of taxpayers money and still can get retained...toot la...and toot enough to go home n mug and do nothing else

and i havent forgot how the econs and hist stuff can't seem 2 get into my head even if i tried reverse osmosis to literally force knowledge in...but i'm just not a stupid rote learning,tutorial worshipping mugger i guess

and it seems that I've a nasty streak of tellin ppl dat i've a crush on a girl,even mistakenly and then they have all kinds of vicious stuff...spikey,miss S,i dunno blah BLAH BLAH...but thankfully what i scarcely mentioned to others are all the types who'd always help me alot...and it seems like having a decent enough relationship with someone just isn't possible for me,had the two of us lived in peace it would have disappointed everyone,but i'd rather have a normal life

and here's de plan after promos

1)open house(ok...more exciting than ever)
2)PW shit(WR and OP and to hell with all these)
3)go out with frens more often(and maybe become closer to them...i'm not the sort would would take being slighted easily)
4)engage in sport(touch rug i guess...it's not quite girly as it seems)
5)gymming and running(need 2 keep fit,and hunks attract more girls i guess regardless of behaviour)
6)CLAO(how f***in cocked out is the exam format,present and future.had they needed talents to shine in China they have started out on the wrong track)
7)service learning(to archives)
8)get a life-or clever mugging.(time balance essential)

looks like I'm better off left alone in peace.quite rightly the most favourite movie for me right now is Be With Me.seems like I'd rather be attached with someone and feeling great even if i'm stressed out and dead from all the responsibility,rather than live a life that looks free but absolutely agonizing,much like living death on death row